time for OWLS!

Weird stuff from old journals.

Ode To A Beloved Cousin:

Frustration.

Words can not convey

The concern I feel

For the unnecessary pain

Caused by a lack of unwillingness to pause

And see that life is not the enemy

And you are not it's hostage, or a victim -

But a prisoner of your own illusion.

I don't have the capacity to make you see.

My words fall short

And still there is no peace inside your soul.

It knows it could be so much more, and yet

It won't believe.

Stubbornly

You sit in the midst of a disaster

You say is all your fault

But your only fault is your choice.

Consequences are natural.

Anyone can wreak havoc with little effort.

But I see a light, an escape -

Everything you miss and hope for

Are more than just memories and dreams -

He lives.

This Morning

"Suppose there is a well of fathomless trouble inside your heart, and Jesus comes and says "Let not your heart be troubled," and you shrug your shoulders and say "But Lord, the well is deep; you cannot draw up quietness and comfort out of it." No, He will bring them down from above. Jesus does not bring anything up from the wells of human nature... The well of your incompleteness is deep, but make the effort and look away to Him." -Oswald Chambers

Lately

This post is dedicated to Rosydreamer.

Learning: That even the smallest things can alter my attitude towards God. Checking Facebook first thing in the morning will squelch my desire to pray, while praying in the morning will squelch my desire to shop later on (shopping is something I do when I'm anxious).

"You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me."
John 15:3-4


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